Saturday, April 30, 2005 . maria full of grace...

its 430 am in the morning... i just reached home... i`m leaving house at 8 for location recce so basically i`m not going to slp... i`m not exactly tired.... but my eyes look very.. how should i put it... ok MERV AND RACH... fill it in for me ...

just went to meet up with merv, rach, mel, steph and later on joined by josh, fq, jared and sharmaine... mel, fq, jared and sharm left and it was the rest of us... we sat in tcc and they snapped loads of pics in my cam... the flyer design just kept pondering in my mind... but nothing solid yet...

on the way home... i suddenly felt that my new script idea is not complete.. it lacked alot of things... i dunno how to improve it right now... but i want to cos its an important story to me...

they say i look really haggard... my eye bags and dark rings look scary?? oh well... tml's gonna be a long day again... i dread sch... i wish sip was longer... i wish...for so many things...


Jon rambling at 30.4.05
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Friday, April 29, 2005 . the ghost of you...

i`m in deep shit... having to do the flyer and banner design by sat... sucks.... i dun even have time to generate any ideas for it... i`ll just have to do something in promt to when i take the photos ...

suddenly on bus ride home, i wondered what if i`m going to die the very next moment and i can wish for final 3 things... what would they be... 1. baptism & confi, 2. my family (shant elaborate) and lastly. i think merv and some ppl might know... would be for her (shant elaborate as well)...

my liason officer will be coming next wed.... sigh... work's been fine i guess... pity that we can only be involved for the preproduction for the next drama and by the time production starts i would be in one of the LT or labs in sch ...

whether i`ll be moving to seletar is still on pending... many circumstances seems to hinder the possibility of us moving... but that is my ideal place for filming... sux...


Jon rambling at 29.4.05
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Saturday, April 23, 2005 . forlorn...

i feel i`m quite lonely in this world... the things going thru my mind i can only handle it myself... i cant even talk to my parents about it... i feel drifted away from my frens but i cant do anything about that... ppl whom i usually hang out with like merv and sal and the twins... i`ve hardly seen them... last night when i meet the guys, (merv, sal, rach, drea, mel, manda and steph) somehow i felt really really drifted from the group? i dunno... i hardly talk to them online...

i dunno what i`m looking forward to everday... i just try to be like normal everyday in front of ppl but i`m getting really tired of that inside ...


Jon rambling at 23.4.05
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Thursday, April 21, 2005 . the end is here...

so productions ended... no more rui en... no more fotos with her or talking to her.... =( oh well.... today was our day off and i just went for lunch and movie to chill out a lil... came home and got fucked by my dad for nothing... feel damn shitty now... in the first place i dreaded coming home... sucks...

had a long chat with the DoP nick over dinner last night... i learnt alot and realised alot from him ... and also my art director jeff... i learnt alot from them... but it makes me worry... about myself... sucks...

i hope tml will be a better day...


Jon rambling at 21.4.05
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Monday, April 18, 2005 . productions...

been having productions non stop since friday... crew call at 6 or 7 and ends as late as 12... i just got home not too long ago and its like 12 ... on a frigging sunday!!! last two days of productions...

oh man... still cant believe can actually get to talk to rui en... oh man.... took some photos! anyway last two days... sadded... i`m not even looking forward to the singapore idol drama... if only this 3G drama is like 200 episodes... hmmm =(

anyway... i enjoy being busy with work... it totally takes my mind of every single thing once we get to work... somehow i enjoy the cant be bothered to think about anything else right now...

i truly understand wat it means by if only time can reverse... i truly understood thru the shoot....


Jon rambling at 18.4.05
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Thursday, April 14, 2005 . the fiction we live...

finished work at 1030... man... tml onwards is the drama productions.... the call sheet schedule is super pack... and we have shoots nonstop until tuesday.... arrrr but oh well get to see rui en!!!! =)

finished checking the props today... and loaded into the truck... tml haave to be in office by 8.... arrrrrr shoots will mostly be in town area... so crowds are expected to gather especially on sat... dunno how ar....

gtg.... slppp slppp slppppppp


Jon rambling at 14.4.05
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005 . RUI EN!!!

HOLY SMOKES!!!! SHE'S IN MY OFFICE .... I saw her and she looked at me then i turn away ran upstairs and AHRHFSJKLHADEHAKEHRKHAJKSFBAJKBNw00t!!! ok gotta go back see see...


Jon rambling at 13.4.05
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Monday, April 11, 2005 . LANDDD`~~~~

in office now.... not many ppl in yet.... past two days been sourcing for props .... went to Giant to buy some stuff for props as well... and people look at me with the WTF are u doing here kind of thing?? and i hate aunties pushing their trolleys... they dun freaking give way and think they are the king of the world... park their blardee trolley in the middle of nowhere... SMLJ!! the whole time in Giant i`m being pissed off with aunties with trolleys...

went to my granny's place as usual yesterday.. grandma and all the aunties who were there said i look thinner and very drained... oh well... and they force me to go and slp... -.- ... Mass yesterday was quite interesting... i was able to pay full attention to the homily when normally i get distracted by birds or babies whining....

JON JULIO!!!!!!!


Jon rambling at 11.4.05
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Sunday, April 10, 2005 . the boy who blocked his own shot...

he brought his own death... not literally though...

so i got my results back... i thought i would have done slightly better but i`m already quite pleased with it... Tvpro = A, Vid Pro = B+ , Pcomd = B+, 3d animation = B+ , Vid Edit = B, LeadChar = B ... so to sum up... 1 A, 3 B+, 2 B... was hoping a couple of the B+ to turned out as A but... hmmm guess the lecturers think i`m not there yet...

i`ve got a new script in mind... haiz.. i wanna shoot it asap... it is a sad one to me... i thought of it on the way home in the bus... i`ll be working on the script these couple of days...

i can never feel the same way again... never...

looking at the people in the industry work... i`m worried about myself... i feel that... at the rate i`m going... i`m never gonna make it up there... i have alot to brush up on... sigh...


Jon rambling at 10.4.05
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Thursday, April 07, 2005 . finally...

ok two finallys.... 1st... the two pictures behind my blog came back... 2nd finally is finally i went thru a full production!!!!!!! yesterday went to little india for a tv commercial shoot for Effie Awards... the set was designed to look like india... and to Merv, it would be a day in uruk's pit... now i really understand why they call it little india... cos theres soooo many indians over there (with all due respect to them).

anyway... the production was fun.. but it started raining... so we had to get into the shelters and wait... but i was already drenched... and the rain came on and off so it was quite irritating... but we manage to finish by the end of the day ... after that returned the equipments with adrian then brought the others back to office then went off...

today work starts 11 so we get to rest an hour more...............gtg.


Jon rambling at 7.4.05
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Monday, April 04, 2005 . third measurement in C

so this morning went to pay my great grandfather respect. probably the last time at the tomb.. under the rules of government we have to cremate the remains and put them in the so called "condos" for the ashes.. took many photos to try and keep the memories of what has been a routine for me for the past at least 12 or 13 years.. maybe more... i cant even remember when i started going...

went for evening mass and it was rather solemn... at least thats how i feel... felt like crap when i was praying after i went to recieve blessing from deacon ... many things spurred up... the death of our holy father, and the feeling of being really useless and lousy made me felt really emo about everything... i dunno how long "that" thing is going to haunt me... but more importantly how long it will be haunting the others... sigh


Jon rambling at 4.4.05
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Sunday, April 03, 2005 . work and work...

casted non stop for 2 consecutive days... seen many kind of people due to that... hmmm monday i`ll get to have a station to work on in the office to do the magazine ads... but somehow i dunno to be happy or wat... i really wana go productions... haiz and susan told me i will go but because what april told them, they decided to put me to use for my after effects... yesterday after work i felt good inside... today after work i felt like crap... journey home seemed extra long... dun like things that way... makes me feel extra crapy... extra lonely... didnt wanna go anywhere but just to sit somewhere to chill... thought of looking for some long lost frens to chill out but non of them could make it at that point of time... sigh wat the fuck is happening ... why am i feeling this way....


Jon rambling at 3.4.05
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