maybe when the cloud stops crying and the sky burns with submarines taking flight in the sky where birds dun fly anymore but swim ... perhaps only after vines start feasting on humans and man kind ceases all sinnings will we understand... maybe we should just all drink heiniken ... i`m tired.. bye bye
so it isnt quite that true or at least it doesnt work for me, the used "today i fell and felt better".. i did fall but i didnt exactly feel much better... not even the loss of a piece of meat on my right shin can subside or divert much of the feelings onto the pain, it wasnt as painful as the 6:19 i did on ECP (merv and mig) will know but i loss more blood cos the wound is deeper. ha act funny la act funny somemore...! but it feels quite consoling when feeling pain...at least it feels alive...
so yes after the party at hayl's the crappy feeling sunk in... or more descriptively while waiting in the car for julius to pick up his'.
just went back to look at my last short film's production stills and thougt maybe i`ll upload a couple..
when everything you do is a balloon, even the playground is dull...
when emo is awesome, the rain stops falling... u`ll start bleeding...
if things dun turn out so complicated, would it die? or maybe its just me? or maybe its not... maybe i feel too many things, maybe its because theres nothing i should feel thats why the emptiness, maybe i should just go and slp... maybe maybe, maybmemories...
went for mass and party at the skool ppl's place. didnt drink because i was driving.. sent gabby and merv home at around 6ish am in the morning and it started drizzling and before long it was pouring... i was on the highway (CTE/PIE) and i could see nothing in front of me at all, no lane markings no lights... then i realise i was kind of swiveling around because i cant see the markings at all, it was that bad.
then after a bent it was a straight highway route. and i see almost 10 or more cars were driving with their hazard lights on, they were swiveling around as well.. so i turned on the hazard lights (i was hazardous) and followed behind a taxi which had its hazard lights on too and it was so scary i felt like my life was really threatened.. cars were reduced to around 50 km/h on the HIGHWAY. before long we see an accident site with a taxi that banged thru the centre barricade that divides the two directions and policemen were trying to make themselves visible with all the illuminating vests and coloured bars but they were hardly useful.
i was so eager to get off the roads or at least the highway and it was playing the used on the cd it was bulimic by the way. and i finally reached home now... 6.45
shoot is almost done up with some minor short scenes left. but honestly right now, a pass is all i ask for... i dun feel the vibes there.. and i cant be too particular about the shots because i have a deadline to meet because i have to help my friends in their shoots after this week. no more driving of vans with wound down windows and blasting songs on the highway after sending my friends home.
thanks to all those who helped me out..
everything is not right... not right... at all...
"You may tire of me as our December sun is setting because I'm not who I used to be
No longer easy on the eyes but these wrinkles masterfully disguise
The youthful boy below who turned your way and saw
Something he was not looking for both a beginning and an end
But now he lives inside someone he does not recognize
When he catches his reflection on accident "
been driving around these few days. in my dad's car.. he's like so damn paraonoid with little things but he doesnt realise he's more reckless than me... tsk tsk....
shoot is near... the stress is intense... crazy shit.... just hope that the lord will bless me with the strength and wisdom to pull through amen...
gotta go do my shots run down ... will blog more...
wooohoooo... debute drive after i get my license... and i taught julius how his OWN car can keep the side mirrors... it was fun and thrilling with no P plate on... i drove and met Traffic Police twice... fucking zhun... good thing that nothing happened... if not Kena only... so driving home was fun.. with jvlz, merv and david talking cork ...
preping for the shoot these few days.. wanna get it over and done with... with all the constraints from the lecs i dun feel it anymore... i`ll probably do a featured after i finish this fyp shit on my original stuffs...
hope everything goes well and may the lord bless me with the wisdom and strength that i will need to overcome all the potholes ahead of me... and pray that merv's family will be strong and pull through in Jesus' most precious name...
the next time u cross the road... think twice of jay walking... because there is a possibilty u`ll face danger... from ME!!!!!!!!
finally got my license... w00t first try!!!!! happy but dad doesnt allow me to drive his car... i`m gonna go nag and pester him everyday...
fyp schedule so tightttttttttt ....
ok i`m going to bed....=)
guo ma lu xiao xin!
