*Latest update: I FOUND DA VINCI'S CODE ILLUSTRATED COLLECTIOR'S EDITION IN MY SIS' ROOM!!! ITS MINE FROM THIS VERY MOMENT!!!
today saw alot of artistes and unknown models when i was helping the assistant director doing casting... it was fun... some of them were friendly and talked to me... ok most of them in fact....
went at 10 and showed Yvonne the I-weekly ad... she say its good and she`ll show it to the client and she`ll give me more magazine ads to do... arrrrr i want productions as well... after i`ve shown her... i delivered some film stocks to Kallang Kfc as there was a shoot there... was happy because i get exposure to productions but i could only stay for a few mins because Haziel told me i need to go pick up mini dv cam from Company X which is April and Boi's company because Rushes and Company X ppl know each other quite well...
I wish i could have stayed at the shoot a lil longer... sigh... i hope chances like that comes by more often... i dun wanna just do ads for them.... anyway... after i went back office with the cam i helped with the casting till 830 then it was the end of it... hmmm people are nice there... but i really really wish... they`ll let me go for productions ...
I like doing After Effects but the fact is i dun learn much because i do all these ads at home and its not like i can ask Joseph to teach me when i`m at home? if i`m doing it in the office then its not as bad but stiLL I WANT PRODUCTIONS!!!!! its where i`ll get to meet more ppl and more opportunities...
Now my whole head is thinking about productions and working... theres going to be two drama serial shoot... hope i`ll be able to be exposed then... RUI EN!!! GOT RUI EN!!!!
generally everyone is nice... shown some of the superiors my work done previously using aftereffects and also so far what i`ve done for the project that they gave me and they were quite pleased and impressed... so far its just first 5 secs of it... i hope they`ll like the whole thing in the end ar cos its something that i haven done before so its kinda diff?
so tml i`m staying home to finish up the ad... cos the coms with Adobe After Effects are limited and used up... they said they will get people to set up a station for me to use but at the moment i`ll be working at home... at least for this project...
since there was no com, i did some calling up of companies regarding sponsorship and stuff, then i called regarding the sending of our new tvc showreel, i swear... i`ve never made so many fone calls... it was like friggin 100 over fone calls... like a spoilt radio repeating myself over and over again...
anyway... ARG i hope that they`ll like the final piece... and wonder after this what will i get to do... anyway there are 3 other interns i think... one of which I THINK is from ADM in our sch but i`m not very sure... she and another girl whom i dunno where is she from are the PROPS ASSISTANTS... while me and another malay guy who wasnt in the office today are currently put under Post Pro... i`m doing broadcast design... not sure about him.... what i heard was i`ll be assisting in doing the magazine ads and when production for the drama comes in i`ll be going on the shoot with the malay guy whom i haven met and we will be rotating and switching some roles... tired.. bye
went last friday... it was damn crowded ar... it was more of a butt rubbing and pushing session... i haven started on the project Rushes gave me... arrrrr and i`m leaving for dinner now.... gotta come home and try getting some work done... tml is the first day of my attachment... looking forward to meeting the ppl in the company... and i was told that one the first week i will be doing more on aftereffects side... production side will come in during mid or late april... rarr...
heard there is one other intern from ngee ann... wonder how good is she and all...
went to watch royston tan's short films yesterday... was hoping to watch his "Son" but they didnt show that so was kinda disappointed... but overall its good la... like some of the stuff like concepts and shots... gotta run...
so i guess the hunter tycolly scored the highest in my quiz so far... not bad not bad.... haiz still rushing for 3d animation....
I HATE RENDERING AND DIGITIZING... its always during these two period of time i fall aslp.. and when i wake up only in the morning i will be like " HO FUCKING SHIT!". YES I DID IT again last night... rendering some studpid animation... i played guitar to stay awake but i did something wrong which was to lie on the bed and play which in the end i still fell aslp... and now i`m rendering again... sucks man... i have like 2 more hours or slightly lesser to finish it up... argh
following up with steph's and merv's here comes my very own... its quite rubbish and some questions are really tough!!! check it out at the side...
i told myself i wont cry over it anymore... i told myself that that very night will be the last time i tear over that... but i failed... terribly badly... during prayer session in ED last sat night i wept silently... in front the eucharist... in front of god.... i thought of everything all over again... i felt the guilt piercing in me... i fought hard but i couldnt hold on anymore... i dunno who saw but i dun care... fuck all the people who judge me... you think you know me but you fucking dont...
i dunno how to feel anymore... thinking over all these has no point i know... but like wat mervyn said... when you are alone it all kicks in and you cant hide from it... i really cant be bothered about many things already... i dont wanna think of anything much now... only among people whom i`m close to can i feel again... at least i dont feel so lonely....
video production is more or less over... it turned out they are quite pleased with our video with just minor amendments to be made... i would have to admit it is quite in the safe zone .. but well we just wanna tally our final product with the project brief and give the association what they want... thanks to Mrs Teo and the little girl Samantha who was our main character of the video...
tv production is over... it was really a last minute preparation thing but i guess it turned out pretty alright... i was really stressed up in the hot seat.... being the director isnt that much fun really... thanks to Zee, Manda and Merv to be our talent... the SNL wannabe program was quite successful....
left with the last project... 3d animation... i really dunno how to start... haiz and it doesnt seem like i have the time and mood to do... i wanna save tml for skating... sunday have soccer with my team... monday is sentosa trip with the nipple gangsters...
i`m confirm going to Rushes Network for internship already... i`m looking forward to it actually... but before that i really need a break and get some solid sleep... i hope i`ll come back to the school next sem better in production and post production side... hope i can learn more broadcast stuff at the same time... ahh so many things to learn so little time....
i have nothing that i`m looking forward to now... i need a lng break but its not gonna happen until september which i`ll be doing a project for my dad... haiz... really sucks... i need slp.... haiz staying over at yihan's place with THE HUNTER!! to do our video production... haiz i hope tml goes well... the filming as well as the editing... gotta go do the credits and stuff now..
my mp3 player spoilt... its lying dead on my table and i have a strong urge to just take it and throw it at someone... really fucked up... i need music everyday through the long bus rides... FUCKING HELL 1 hr 30 mins of bus ride with no music can burn holes in me... i needa mp3 player now... desperately... thinking between ipod or i shuffle... sucks... needa save up for them again...
met up with merv for a while in the afternoon and we sat for some time at the coffee club xpress in wisma atria... talked to him and felt slightly better... many weird ppl we`ve seen today and merv had some funny comments about girls... well...
just hope that the lecturer will approve my script tml and the rehearsal can go on... just hope that we can all put on a nice show... haiz being the director of the group is really stress balls... hope that final tv production will be successful ... just hope that video pro and 3d anime wont kill me ...
yesterday went to skate again... first it was only me, mig and kenny... we went to oasis first and today THERE WAS NO SHIT NO WATER PUDDLES... ok there was still some remains of those shit but it was dried up so there was no smell so it was ok! at oasis it was where i witness for the first time how pro kenny is... w00t.... can burn holes! then came GERVYNMOH... and skated a while more there and then we set off to CBD but this time we didnt skate there... we took a bus to city hall and skated to CBD from there... and when we skated pass victoria theatre, we saw this group of people who are supposingly going for a concert and then kenny was like saying EHH WHY SKATE SO FAST!!! GOT PRETTY GIRL SIA!!! but then he shy to go back again...
then it was CBD and we saw some other skaters there as well... dunno issit really skating at night helps or issit just me and merv... when the sky turn dark we have more balls to do tricks and we just threw ourselves on the curb and try only.... tricks that i`ve never tried before i also just throw... but it was really shiok at night over there.... then we skated to Lau Pa Sat for dinner and then me and merv skated around while mig and kenny left... merv and i skated to esplanade and then to park mall before we changed and went off... skating at night is really shiok.. be it recre or aggro...
i feel stressed up with work easily.. constantly thinking about them... especially the two maj0r projects, the DSA promo clip and the final TV productions... i dun really think i should be the director for the later... i dun wanna bring down the group because of my mood lately which affected some of my work quality as said by my friends.. i told them i didnt want to but they asked me to... i just hope that i can just make sure that it`ll be good once again just so that i wont pull down their grades...
i hope what yvonne from Rushes Networks said to april was true, if its confirmed then my SIP is sort of finalised..? i have better things to worry about... i still cant bring myself to open up my mouth and convince my parents to let me be baptized...
yesterday was the first day of shoot at DSA... i wouldnt say it was really good as there were some problems... but i guess we`ll leave it to post productions to solve em... i wanna try finishing my video editing by tonight so tml i can be free... but i`m so damn fucking tired....
listened to this song throughout my bus ride home... kept repeating it... and made me felt damn emo... even as i was heading from school to meet sal, merv and mig this song played in my head non stop... feeling fucking sian at home now and my dad is fucking pissing me off with little things... i have work to do and obliged to posts given... i`m fucking tired and i wanna slp but i cant... arghh!
who really knows what i want and feel... lonliness kicked in again once i got home... i couldnt find anyone to talk to... everyone seems to be away seems to be occupied... i wanted to talk so much... to relieve whats been cooped up within for some time... sigh... i wanna run away....
